Wednesday, September 18, 2013

One step forward, two steps back

I honestly feel that we are taking one step forward and two steps back all the time. We met with Dr. Gregg today and let me tell you my prayer from earlier today was spot on.  Patience is not something I am great at, but it is something I am/have been working on.  Well I am going to need it. 

Without going into a ton of detail (mainly because it is boring and I don't think I could explain it very well) we need to do more genetic testing on the two of us before we proceed.  The results from Jackson indicate that this is best decision before we proceed with trying to have biological children.  I know without a doubt that this is the best decision, but I am frustrated that there is even a need for us to do this. I want to know with as much certainty as possible that we are genetically compatible.  Right now we do not know this. 

Of course to do this there is a nice price tag attached.  The genetic counselor we work with during our last pregnancy is so great and is working with the lab to try and work out a financial deal for us given the situation.  So pray for this as finances are really starting to become an issue. 

Based on the results of the genetic testing we will either proceed with a FET or move towards adoption.  We are open to both and if infertility was off the table we have always considered adoption.  Adoption is such a great blessing and we have always felt called to adopt, so this maybe God's way of showing us this is His plan for us.

Right now we are praying for us to be still and listen.  We know that God has a plan for us and for our family, and when we are still and patient and listen we will know what His plan is.  We really would like to be able to do FET, but if that is not what God has planned for our lives we will move forward with adoption.


  1. I hope you can go forward with the FET but wanted to see if embryo adoption is something that you would consider. It can be similar to adoption with a home study if you wanted an open relationship or it can be done anonymously through various clinics but it lets one experience pregnancy too. I am not sure if this is o your list of options but thought I would mention just in case. I hope you will not need to think about it though!

    1. Thank you Leslie! We will absolutely be talking about this.

  2. I'm so sorry you are stuck in limbo with more waiting :( I hope the genetic testing provides some encouraging answers. I certainly understand about the anxiety over the costs racking up! That's great that they are going to try to work out a financial deal. Thinking of you!

  3. Girl, praying for you! Glad to read the update. I just know that God is so sovereign and is holding you both tight during this process!

  4. Hi Caroline, I wanted to tell you that I nominated you for a Liebster blogging award (info on my latest post). No pressure to participate if you would rather not and/or have already received one in the past, but I just wanted to let you know!

  5. Annie thank you so much! I will absolutely make time to do this soon. Thanks girl!